Prelude to a Gang Bang

by Alexa on November 2, 2009 · 72 comments

As you’ll recall, a few weeks ago I invited people to contact me about organizing a gang bang. My original desire for doing this sprung from having seen it in porn and seen other women talk about their experiences being in them (especially Carol Cox, who routinely invites her website members to participate in her gang bangs).  It’s been a fantasy of mine for some time, largely just to see if I was capable of mentally and physically performing for the length of time it would take a group of people to tire out fucking me.  I was also operating under the assumption that, since I adored being fucked in every hole individually, and enjoyed the DP I’d had on my tour, being constantly and repeatedly fucked in all three holes simultaneously had to feel incredible.

Pursuant to my blog post, I had eight people contact me expressing interest in helping me with this particular event, a number that I still find a tad amusing.  After talking with some of them and doing a bit of research, I actually discovered there’s a pretty robust underground for making these kinds of things happen.  One of of the individual’s that contacted me even has a web site specifically for women seeking this kind of activity (contact me if you’re a female in the LA area or willing to travel to the area interested in this and I’ll point you to it).

Of the eight, three struck me immediately as serious contenders for organizing this (including the gentleman with the web site).  What made them serious was the amount of detail they went into about how they organize these kinds of things.  They were all pretty much the same in their approach, and, interestingly to me, they each used DJs and music as a part of each bang.  I know, right?  :lol:

The deciding factor in which one I selected initially was that he provided references, one of whom I had some passing familiarity with.  I contacted her and she verified that he was legit and wasn’t likely to be in it for something he could get out of it.  I agreed to meet with him (I’ll call him Ed, for the purposes of this piece), and we sat down and discussed my reasons for doing this and how I envisioned it playing out.  Then he explained what he could do to make it happen.  I was quite impressed with how much effort actually went into pulling one of these off.

My initial plan was to entertain ten men.  Ed told me that he had quite a few guys who’d participated in the bangs he’s organized in the past, and felt that, based on my looks and eagerness to play, he’d have no problem finding that many for me, especially since I was not going to be charging the guys to participate.  He also laid out some other ideas he had, such as the DJ, space, play rules and other logistical concerns (drinks to make sure everyone stayed hydrated, for example).

He told me he’d have a couple of fluffers as well.  I laughed.  I mean, I know they use fluffers on porn sets, but it just never occurred to me that there’d need to be fluffers for a gang bang.  But, the fact that most of the guys wouldn’t be on/in me at any given point means that they might need some, uh, assistance remaining erect.  I asked why this would be necessary given the availability of Viagra (and my attendant assumption that the guys would be using it for this).  His explanation was that most guys would not be using any medicinal assistance, for a variety of reasons.

Fluffers need to be paid (they don’t suck dick for free, apparently), and the space would likely need to be rented as well, depending on where we elected to host.  So Ed suggested we ask the guys to fork over a small amount – something on the order of $25 to help pay for those things, a small gratuity for the DJ, and drinks for everyone.  I told him I didn’t have a problem with him charging any amount, really; I just wasn’t interested in making any money off this.

I also explained that anyone he selected to participate had to be a non-asshole, and that there was to be no alcohol involved – I didn’t want people getting drunk and running the risk of the scene turning into something that even looked like it involved non-consensuality.

We also discussed whether or not I’d be requiring the guys to use condoms.  I explained that part of my interest in the gang bang was the bukkake aspect of it and that I didn’t want the guys to use condoms unless they wanted to.  I also explained my idea about testing, requiring two subsequent clean sets of test results from each guy.  Ed told me he didn’t think that’d be a problem, but reminded me that this was no guarantee that there’d not be a latent bug in someone even if both tests came back clean.  I acknowledged that as a risk, and volunteered that I’d likewise submit two sets of test results.

We also went over the “extent of play” – what all I’d allow, how long it’d last, and so forth.  I explained that I’d allow uncovered penetration in all three orifices, the guys could come and go as they pleased, they could grab hair and be rough up to and including slapping my ass and boobs, grabbing hair, face/throat fucking, and ass-to-mouth oral exchange so long as the cock came out without any brown stuff on it.  They could also talk dirty and call me whatever they wanted to, and could cum wherever they wished, internally or externally.  I also agreed that we could try any position anyone wanted to try if people wanted to play with new positions.

The hard limits involved no ass-to-vagina exchange, no hitting me in the face, no leaving permanent marks anywhere, no pee or scat play, no DPs of a single orifice other than my mouth, and respect for my safe words.  There was also to be absolutely no video or photography, and everyone would have to sign a non-disclosure agreement stating that they’d not distribute any photos, video, or names of any of the participants, including, most importantly, me.  :lol:

With that, Ed set out arranging for my gang bang.

A few days later, he contacted me to work out a date.  Based on my calendar there were a number of possibilities, but we agreed upon November 1st at a building here in town that is used for, shall we say, not dissimilar purposes when it’s not hosting group sex involving your favorite hooker.  The time would be 6PM.  He asked me for a couple of photographs to shop around to potential participants.  I sent him a couple of my modeling shots with my face partially blurred out.

Over the subsequent weeks, we communicated regularly so he could provide me with updates on the number of guys and other ideas he had about what we could do to make the bang more entertaining.  We agreed to a meeting on October 31st with all of the non-penetrators to meet one another, go over the schedule and to make sure everyone was aware of their roles and get comfortable with one another.

At the meeting, Ed introduced Teagan and Karyn (not their real names), the two women he’d hired to act as fluffers.  Both women were pretty hot, but Teagan was just drop dead gorgeous (and had a hint of Teagan Pressley in her face, thus her pseudonym here).  Just having her in the room should’ve provided all the fluff anyone needed in my opinion.  :lol:   Both women had themselves been in gang bangs, though nothing on the order of what I’d be doing.

I also met the DJ, and we discussed ideas for music he could play.  I asked if there were CDs for gang bangs, as I wasn’t exactly sure what would be…appropriate for such an event.  I volunteered that maybe some raunchy hip-hop might work at the outset to get me in the mood, but once we got started, I doubt I’d even notice what was playing (that would turn out to be true).  I sent out a Tweet asking my followers what they thought would be good, and got several dozen replies, only two of which were identical (Massive Attack).  People suggested everything from gospel (sarcastically, I’d like to hope) to Prince to Led Zeppelin to Enigma.  The DJ said he had some music that he’d used in the past that seems to work well for keeping everyone wound up.  I told him I trusted his judgment.

Ed also had a third woman, Amanda, who’d be present specifically to act as my monitor – someone to watch me as the event unfolded to ensure that I was doing okay and that my extent of play was not being violated.  He felt this was critical given the number of guys I’d be playing with.  If she sensed that something was wrong, she’d stop the action and check on me.  Amanda, too, had been gang banged before and was acutely aware of what I was about to experience.  In a side conversation during a break, we talked for a few minutes and she told me this was easily going to be the most intense experience I’d ever had, given this many guys being involved.  She also suggested a couple of ideas about how to restore my focus during the event if things got a bit too cloudy.  She genuinely seemed to care that I have an outstanding experience.

Ed also showed me photos and test results from the 14 guys who’d indicated serious interest in participating.  There’d been a 15th, but his test results showed that he was infected with a bug (treatable).  Based on what I’d read about other peoples’ experiences, I knew that some of those were likely to not show up.  Ed said that was generally the rule, but these are all guys he’s hooked up with GBs before and that most, if not all would definitely be here.  The guys were quite literally of all shapes and sizes, in more ways than one.  None of them scared me, though, so I gave the go ahead for all who wished to play.

The only thing I requested specifically was that the drinks included some cold fruit punch-flavored Gatorade for my own personal use.  That’s what I’ve always used to hydrate myself and I liked the taste, so that’s what I wanted.  Anything else was up to Ed and company.  There was to be water, soft drinks, and some light snacks for everyone.

We went out and toured the room we’d be using.  It was a fairly large area, equipped with a small bench, floor mats that would be covered with plastic sheeting and covers, chairs, and tables.  Some of the furniture was rather unique and apparently built specifically for sex play.  I looked forward to using those.  :shock:

There was also a couple of bathrooms with showers in them right off the main room itself, a feature I was sure would come in handy at the completion of the play.  Ed also indicated that the air conditioning system worked well, since heat was liable to become an issue as everyone remained physically active for the two hours or so we estimated the gang bang would last.

As we were walking around, I inquired about having someone available to “live tweet” the event.  Ed was only superficially aware of what Twitter was so I had to spend some time explaining it to him.  He wasn’t immediately aware of anyone who’d be available to tweet the festivities, but he said he’d check on it.  Though I had my doubts he’d actually try, based on the interest it had generated online, I thought it’d be fun to have someone describe what was taking place as it happened (sadly, that was not to work out).

With that, we wrapped things up, agreed we’d see each other the next night around 5:30 and I went home.  I never got nervous about the gang bang at all (after all, performance was never an issue for me), but I will admit to being incredibly anxious.  I’m guessing the anxiety came from not knowing how I’d handle everything, if I’d last long enough to make the guys happy, and how sore I was likely to be once we were done.  It’s one thing to get fucked by one or two people in a sex session, but to have 14 run a train on me wasn’t something I was used to having done.  So my assumption was that parts of my body were likely to be quite sore and feeling as if they’d been abused in the days after the bang.

Sunday morning, I got up and prepared to enjoy an entirely new experience.

[NOTE: I will eventually write a post about the gang bang itself.  Rest assured that as soon as I am comfortable doing so, it'll be posted.  It was an incredibly intense and emotional experience for me, and it'll take some time to write it out such that I am happy with the way it expresses what took place in my mind.  DO NOT ask me over and over again when it's going to be up.  All you'll do is irritate me, and no one wants an irritated Alexa running around.  ;-) ]







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Chaz November 2, 2009 at 9:25 pm

Having been involved in group sex events in the past I must say this guy really had his act together in setting it all up and its great that he found enough guys that you approved of. Cannot wait to read the full tale

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BobF November 2, 2009 at 9:30 pm

Interesting how the event was planned out in such detail. I truly hope it works out for you. I wondered last night while it was going on how your paying clients might feel about knowing you had unprotected sex with 12 different guys. But you’re the pro, not me.

I have encountered numerous women who fantasize about being gang banged but I doubt many of them have ever taken the plunge. I will say that from my point of view, I’m not sure how I would feel about participating in one. I have no fears of being naked with a bunch of guys, but sometimes while watching GB porno, it seems so … I don’t know … unpleasant? But I suppose if I knew the woman was loving it, it would be fine.

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Mac November 2, 2009 at 10:48 pm

“I wondered last night while it was going on how your paying clients might feel about knowing you had unprotected sex with 12 different guys. But you’re the pro, not me.”

You know, I thought of the very same thing. How would you like to be the next client after your whore was gang banged by 12 guys in every orifice possible, all while unprotected? Not very appetizing to think about. And they did it for free, while you’re paying through the nose!

I was actually thinking of seeing Alexa someday, but after this, I’d have to have second thoughts.

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Alexa November 2, 2009 at 10:54 pm

And they did it for free, while you’re paying through the nose!

Are you suggesting I not be allowed to enjoy my own sexuality for my own benefit, in lieu of serving people like you all the time? I have no problem separating my personal private sex from the business sex. I’d hope you’d afford me the same courtesy (though obviously you don’t). This is a classic example of someone seeing a sex worker as an object rather than a person. Excellent work, sir. :rollseyes:

I was actually thinking of seeing Alexa someday, but after this, I’d have to have second thoughts.

It is well within your purview to make such a decision. Let me encourage you at this point to save your energy with respect to me. ;-)

I will say that, should I ever contract a disease, I’ve explained my approach and philosophy on that in a previous post here:

http://www.realprincessdiaries.com/2009/08/criminal-overexposure/

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AmericanPrimitive November 2, 2009 at 11:05 pm

To be honest, I found this comment to be a bit ungentlemanly.

She’s been very open on this blog about her sex life and her enjoyment of sex. I find it quite liberating.

If I had the time, the resources and the fortune to meet Alexa – as a client of hers – i would be honored.

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Kinkydad November 3, 2009 at 8:21 am

I agree whole heartedly. Alexa is very eloquent and open about her reasons for participating in this whole lifestyle.

I would have no problem with seeing her (and hope to do so some day).

Should she be as concerned about what we do in our private lives? Yes.

Does she have the right to decline service to any one of us? Yes.

Do we have the right to pursue women we want to engage in sexual encounters with, yes.

This blog is about being transparent, open and honest about her pursuit of new and unique sexual experiences.

Mac November 2, 2009 at 11:08 pm

“Are you suggesting I not be allowed to enjoy my own sexuality for my own benefit, in lieu of serving people like you all the time? I have no problem separating my personal private sex from the business sex. I’d hope you’d afford me the same courtesy (though obviously you don’t).”

Your profession (at the moment) is being an escort. Just as professional baseball players are not allowed to engage in certain risky behaviors (skydiving, playing basketball in the offseason, etc.), I would think your clients would expect that you wouldn’t engage in such risky behavior in your off hours.

You are, of course, entitled to do as you wish (and having read your tweets and website for quite some time, I know that nothing I say will make a difference). Still, while you are engaged in this profession, I think you owe it to your clients to behave in a safe manner both professionally and personally.

I know you have no shortage of potential clients, so no skin off your back. You just won’t get the pleasure of my company, and I’m sure I’m not alone (although others may not admit it).

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Missy November 3, 2009 at 12:30 am

“I would think your clients would expect that you wouldn’t engage in such risky behavior in your off hours.”

By your logic, clients shouldn’t be engaging in risky behaviour either but I’m sure they still do.

And on that note, many escorts and clients participate in risky behaviours with each other – uncovered oral sex. It’s called a “known risk” and accepting the risk. At least she’s up front with her clients, they know she’s a sexual person who has a life outside of being a worker. It’s not like she’s lying and trying to hide anything.

BobF November 3, 2009 at 7:36 am

I’d like to separate myself from Mac’s reply to my comment. While I started the thread, my intent was more one of passing concern for Alexa’s professional status…but note that I acknowledged in the end that she is the professional, not me. Everything that I have learned of her experience with this gangbang suggests that her professionalism was present in virtually all aspects.

As for whether or not some client would get upset because they had her for “free” while they were “paying through the nose” is totally irrelevant to me. In fact, I sort of imagined that Alexa may have paid for the experience herself (I guess not now). She has told us from the beginning that this was all about experiencing something she really wanted to try. To live out her own fantasies. Isn’t that exactly WHY many of us seek out our female companions?

So I fully support Alexa’s enjoying her own sexuality for her own benefit. The more I think about it, the more absurd it is to expect an escort to NOT have a personal sex life, separate from their professional activities.

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AmericanPrimitive November 2, 2009 at 9:31 pm

I am amazed and impressed with all the work that went into this event. An organizer, a dj, fluffers, a spotter (the woman to make sure you were ok). Very impressive indeed.

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SexWarrior November 2, 2009 at 9:40 pm

Can’t wait to read the next post, this one was just as I’d expected but I can’t wait to hear how it was for you, how you felt, how you handled any loss of ‘reality’ in your own mind, all of it in your own inimitable style. Thank you for posting :-)
x

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sweetspiced November 2, 2009 at 9:59 pm

You make me wish I lived in LA. Knowing that it worked out for you makes me very happy. And it does make a lot of sense to have the music, the fluffers. I guess it could get difficult waiting your turn, even with such a hot scene to watch.

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Captain Starfish (moresex4me) November 2, 2009 at 10:00 pm

Lots of preparation, and it sounds like it was all you wanted it to be. I can’t wait for the blog post on the event itself, and will henceforth stop harassing you for it!

I’m glad you found the right organizers with the right support group. I’m sure that helped immensely. I tweeted it before, but you’ve got it all my dear. You are intelligent, well-spoken, thoughtful, and are into a lot of the same things I’m in to, few of which are considered “vanilla”.

I’m glad Ashton, Molly, et al put me on to your tweets and your blog. Keep it up!

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Hannah November 2, 2009 at 11:09 pm

I’m so glad it worked out well.

My group experiences have been woefully badly planned and I am both impressed and inspired by how you approached and executed this. Bravo!

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mina November 2, 2009 at 11:15 pm

wow, this is truly fascinating to read and I will look forward to the actual post. I can totally understand the emotions from this. Recently Sylvanus and I have invited new partners into the bedroom. This spurred very open and honest posts that didn’t sugar coat anything.

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laulipop November 3, 2009 at 2:55 am

Prologue of an X rated tale, is it ? ;)

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 5:18 am

Yes, ma’am. :P

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namelesschaos November 3, 2009 at 4:45 am

Glad you found the right group and that everything went so well for you. I greatly admire how you go after what you want in life, it is truly inspirational.

I thank you greatly for sharing your explorations with us. I remember asking you if you would be willing to do a TP after reading your MHC post and it has certainly been interesting watching you progress from three in turn, to DP on tour, to 12 man Bareback Gangbang with TP. I have to wonder where does one go from here? :lol:

Don’t worry about getting the post done considering how intense just imagining it is I sure no one could fault you for needing time to write that up (or even if you never manage to get it done).

Lastly, group sex scenarios are kind of a thing for me so needless to say that unlike certain others some of us would find the prospect of spending an evening with someone (paying for it or not) who could declare the title of “gangbang girl” to be very appetizing.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 5:28 am

I have to wonder where does one go from here?

Scenario-based GBs, acting out various fantasies I’ve entertained, etc. I’m not driven to find bigger and better things to do, though. This was just something I’d had an interest in for quite a while and was at a point where it became viable for me to act it out.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 5:26 am

It’s not like she’s lying and trying to hide anything.

Indeed. And, in fact, Mac, if you read the post at the link I provided in my initial response to you (and I can tell you haven’t), I specifically mentioned the fact that I’d stop working if I contracted something that was incurable (and would stop until I was cured if I picked up something that was curable), AND am a huge advocate for full disclosure between both the provider and the client.

The issue here is not one of risk so much as it is disclosure.

And by the way, your analogy fails. I work for myself, not an owner as a basketball player does. The player holds an additional responsibility toward the owner paying his salary as it is negotiated in a contract. You, sir, do not “own” me and therefore I don’t owe you any more duty than any other service provider does to you. Your doctor doesn’t inform you that s/he takes risks with other patients or in his personal life, does he? No, of course not.

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Ingrid Nevin November 3, 2009 at 7:23 am

I don’t think he’s read your post on stopping working if you contracted anything. And if he did, he didn’t care because it would negate the rational basis of his complaint. Leaving only the issues of control and pay/free jealousy dynamics that strike me as huge red flags. For that reason, I’d say, you are pretty lucky to avoid the “pleasure of his company”…

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Mac November 3, 2009 at 9:26 am

Alexa’s honesty is not the issue and I’ve never questioned it. I find her posts fascinating or else I wouldn’t read them. I was just expressing a sentiment that many others who might have an interest in seeing her are probably thinking, but are too afraid to post as you can see the attacks that have come my way. Heaven help you if you disagree with Alexa and her minions.

I have read the quitting post and that doesn’t change anything. I said I wouldn’t want to be her NEXT client – no test works that fast and I haven’t read anywhere that Alexa is taking a month or two off to wait for test results. Many clients will be potentially affected in those one or two months.

As for the “independent contractor” comment, your employer in this case is your client, and you owe him or her your allegiance, not some employer. So I find this comment irrelevant.

As for Missy’s comment on oral sex, an unprotected gang bang with 12 guys and performing unprotected oral sex, while both carry risk, are not of the same level of risk. Flying in an airplane is less risky than jumping out of one. I will fly in an airplane, but I won’t jump out of one.

As for all of you attacking me and feeling superior because Alexa won’t be seeing me, that’s fine because I have no interest in seeing her. That is what free’s me to write honestly rather than those of you wannabes who kiss her ass and tell her what she wants to hear.

As they say, there are plenty of fish in the sea, and I will probably be inside many of you – you just won’t know it. In fact, Alexa wouldn’t know it either if I chose to see her someday. None of you know who I am. And maybe I’ll have an unprotected gang bang before I see you (with all the same precautions Alexa took) – no harm right?

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 3:45 pm

I was just expressing a sentiment that many others who might have an interest in seeing her are probably thinking, but are too afraid to post as you can see the attacks that have come my way. Heaven help you if you disagree with Alexa and her minions.

I’ve never had a problem with anyone disagreeing with me or expressing it here (so long as it is done respectfully). If you do express disagreement (and a great many have, don’t make yourself out to be a martyr), then you should be prepared to be countered. That’s not anything unique to this blog by any stretch of the imagination.

I said I wouldn’t want to be her NEXT client – no test works that fast and I haven’t read anywhere that Alexa is taking a month or two off to wait for test results. Many clients will be potentially affected in those one or two months.

That’s true, but how do you even know the providers you have seen get tested in the first place? Or if they say they are, aren’t lying about it? There are providers who *never* get tested because they don’t want to know if they have something. Unless you’re requiring them to produce test results each and every time you see them, I’d suggest your concern about me is driven more by…something other than logic, shall we say.

The fact of the matter is that disease is a potential risk of this activity, regardless of how many precautions are taken. Even if every penetration was fully covered, there still exists the risk of transmitting a disease. The provider you saw at 7 last night may have been with someone at 3 that afternoon and caught something you’ll end up with, even if she used all the protection available to her at the time.

You might argue about the risk being less in those situations than mine, but I’d disagree. I think we took exceptional steps here to minimize the risk to all parties concerned – far more than just about anyone I’ve known, in fact. Is it riskier for you to be with me, or a provider who’s never tested at all? I think the answer to that is obvious.

As for the “independent contractor” comment, your employer in this case is your client, and you owe him or her your allegiance, not some employer. So I find this comment irrelevant.

I’m not sure if you truly don’t understand the nature of the difference or you’re just being argumentative, but you’re no more my “employer” than are your doctor’s when you go see him/her.

There are different standards of care and obligations in an employer/employee relationship than there are between a contracted individual and someone they’re providing services to. Enforceability of obligation, for example. The ability to dictate the terms under which you work for another. There are a great many legal obligations that attach in an employer/employee relationship as well. None of those come into play between a service provider and his/her clients.

Nor do I owe my clients my “allegiance” in any way, shape, form, or fashion. My sole obligation to my clients is the performance of agreed upon services in as professional a manner as possible. Now, if you wish to construct an argument around whether or not I’m doing that, then maybe you can gain some traction.

And maybe I’ll have an unprotected gang bang before I see you (with all the same precautions Alexa took) – no harm right?

If you took the same precautions I did, I’d have no problem whatsoever seeing you.

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Mac November 3, 2009 at 3:58 pm

Alexa, I’ve thought about it and I think you’ve made some excellent points. I think you’ve answered every one of my points in a thoughtful way. You are consistent in your argument and even agreed to see me if I took the same precautions as you did. I admit that you have won the argument.

T November 4, 2009 at 5:13 pm

Well, I can sort of understand prospective client’s worry about unprotected sex, but you are actually very very clear in your goals, you are a professional and very very transparent in how you did it and very strict in your limits.

I think the fact that you do post about this in very frank detail should make you more eligible instead of less. If this deters prospective clients, what is to say other escorts they in turn choose to do business with do not engage in similar behaviour but simply don’t tell or are open about it?

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nitin November 3, 2009 at 6:41 am

To say the least i found your post quite intriguing . I have been interested in Gangbangs and its inner working for quite some time. i was aware of fluffers and other details. since i had studied about such events before. i really wanted to comprehend the psychological aspect behind it for as interesting as it is , it is also extremely exciting. I would love to hear more about it. And have added you to my Blog list. Shalom and take care.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 3:47 pm

I’ll try to address some of my thinking in the post on the GB itself. Hopefully that’ll give everyone some insight into why I wanted to do it and what it felt like while I was going through it.

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bbw November 3, 2009 at 9:08 am

It’s easy to get lost here in some imagined locker room full of sweaty men, flying monkey diseases, and the poor confused lil’ girl on the mat at the center. But there’s a river that runs through what Alexa did in this experience and does in general in her life and work and writing: one brave person continually opens her own mind and body and soul to what’s possible in the way of growth and pleasure and self-acceptance, fully being herself without reference to others’ expectations, demands, or judgments. How rare is that? And how sad is it that it’s so rare?

Along the way, she’s also constantly catalyzing all sorts of growth and pleasure and provocative thoughts and feelings in everyone else — experiences they wouldn’t be having if she didn’t dare to live large. She does it all intelligently and articulately, she leaves a brightly lit path for anyone who might like to follow all or any part of the way, and she isn’t charging anyone to stop in here and marvel at all this. Respect!

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BobF November 3, 2009 at 10:50 am

Nicely said. I am glad to have discovered RPD (and through it several other sites). It has opened my mind a lot to the possibilities in my own life…now just need to exercise some of the same daring Alexa has to begin realizing some of that potential in myself. Personally, I’m probably not up for participating in a gang bang (but, hey, who knows right?) but lots of other aspects of my sexuality — I really want to experience an orgy before I die, for example — are calling to me.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 3:57 pm

now just need to exercise some of the same daring Alexa has to begin realizing some of that potential in myself.

I wish more people could reach down into themselves and do that. I know a TON of people who’d love to do something like that, or even things as simple as doing a one-time same sex experimentation, if only they could muster up the courage to do it. I’ve covered that on this blog before, actually. Much of it has to do with lack of self confidence and the fear of rejection. Those can be hard to overcome, sadly.

Good luck with your orgy. ;-)

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BobF November 3, 2009 at 7:01 pm

Baby steps first … I have just made plans to go out with my first escort on November 24 (would do it sooner but work impedes scheduling). I am 59 and have never paid for female companionship before. In no small way, reading RPD and your Twitter feed as well as exploring various links from both of those places has opened a new world to me. I am probably as anxious about my first “date” as you were on Sunday. Ha! Well, maybe not … But I am excited and know I will have a good time.

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Audrey Rose November 3, 2009 at 9:38 pm

Oh Bob, I’m jealous I won’t be your first provider! I love “new” guys :-)
It makes me feel like I’m showing someone a new and exciting part of life!

And Alexa, let me thank you once again for clearly helping people to do things they’ve never thought they’d do. I credit you with opening up many a guy’s (and girl’s) mind. Maybe Mac would accuse me of ass kissing, but I think you’re definitely a positive influence in the world of sex.

Stephanie November 6, 2009 at 12:31 pm

I’m just waiting for this experience until the right girl and I can make our schedules mesh. I have faith it will work out one of these days… ;-)

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 3:54 pm

and she isn’t charging anyone to stop in here and marvel at all this.

Maybe I should! :shock:

Nah! :P

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bbw November 4, 2009 at 8:05 am

What I actually meant to say was a little more involved and a little less mercenary: It would be easy for you to let your freak flag fly and just live that life without recounting it here, which takes plenty lickle time and trouble. Lots of people do — take the pleasure and just glow and grow on their own. You share. Perhaps there’s some exhibitionism in it, or some other variant of self-interest, but the fact is it takes a lot of doing to process all this living into words and to do it as well as you do. That’s an act of spiritual generosity, in addition to making men and women ’round dis yar Earth drip come in their drawers. I don’t mean to damn you with excessive praise, but you’re a whore of the sacred sort.

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Randi November 3, 2009 at 10:41 am

I won’t lie that I’m looking forward to the GB post, but this post was extremely interesting as well! I had never thought about all of the things that had to occur in order to have a GB be safe and enjoyable for all involved. Kudos to the guy in charge for making sure that it went down smoothly!

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 4:01 pm

It’s nice to have the opportunity and wherewithal to be able to plan it out. The vast majority of GBs are really spur of the moment or quickly planned things.

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Carrie November 3, 2009 at 2:20 pm

Mac: “How would you like to be the next client after your whore was gang banged by 12 guys in every orifice possible, all while unprotected?”

I was afraid this would get buried in the lengthy thread above so I’ll answer down here. kthx

Alexa has written about other ‘free’ sexcapades she has had (i.e. Cockblock, Yellowstone) and that was okay but this isn’t?

Also, from the short amount of time I’ve been reading Alexa, she seems to have a solid head on her shoulders and I imagine she would be tested again after the GB. From what I gather, she makes her clients use protection (even the women have the option of a dental dam).

If you picked up a person at a bar, you have no idea what they’ve done and with whom. At least with Alexa, what you read is what you get.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 4:10 pm

I imagine she would be tested again after the GB.

I am due for my next test next week, and have myself tested at least every other month anyway, primarily for my own personal peace of mind.

from the short amount of time I’ve been reading Alexa, she seems to have a solid head on her shoulders

:inlove:

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Carrie November 3, 2009 at 8:39 pm

Aw, i smiley-face-hearts you too!

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Trevor November 3, 2009 at 2:53 pm

Fascinating. I’m somewhat surprised that the fluffers needed to be paid. While I’m not surprised fluffers would be present, I would think that there are plenty of women in the ‘lifestyle’ who would happily suck cock simply for enjoyment’s sake. The presence of a DJ is amusing, as well as surreal, to me. In my imagination, Ravel’s Bolero plays on as the gang bangs away. :)

My compliments to you for making your fantasy a reality, and especially for having the courage to ask for it. Reality can be disappointing, and you were willing to take that chance.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 4:13 pm

While I’m not surprised fluffers would be present, I would think that there are plenty of women in the ‘lifestyle’ who would happily suck cock simply for enjoyment’s sake.

I’ve not been around it enough to be able to opine on that, but I’m thinking I’d probably want to be paid to do it if I wasn’t the center and the recipient of all the attention. It is, after all, work, keeping all of those cocks in a persistent state of erection. Which is not to say that I wouldn’t enjoy it, of course. ;-)

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Jekandhyd November 3, 2009 at 4:17 pm

I’m a bit late with this comment for various reasons, but I too have changed my view of you a bit because of the GB. However it confirms the view I have that you are brave and will try absolutely anything at least once. It makes me even more keen to meet you, but much less keen to engage you as an escort – partly because I am now even more sure I am the wrong sort of client for you (too vanilla) and partly because all that unprotected sex makes me very nervous. However, you are such an exciting trail blazer that you remain the ony sex worker I would pay to see purely socially (if you would allow such a thing)

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Claudia Bellocq November 3, 2009 at 6:19 pm

wow Alexa! as always your insight inspires and your description of the run-up is totally informed and self aware, oh and daaaaaaamn HOT!!!! I love how you present sex and your own sexual drives and desires in such an open and up-front way. I’ll bet you seriously challenge some folks! Hats off to you as we say in Brit land a go-go…Claudia (doffs cap and considers gang bang for herself…a long held fantasy of mine too….)

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Randy November 3, 2009 at 7:40 pm

The whole thing is very, very exciting. I admire you Alexa for going for it. I imagine myself among the men in two ways. As myself, getting fluffed, and at the first few minutes of watching the GB, I explode, thank the fluff girl and sneak out with embarrasment. So I imagine myself as one of those young men instead :) I`ll leave the rest in my head

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Sean November 3, 2009 at 8:10 pm

Like the others I am both impressed and astounded by the amount of preparation that went into this. Most of us think I’m sure of the whole “spontaneous gangbang” porn-movie scene – obviously done properly this is much safer and I’m sure more fun for everyone.

As for your choice to do it unprotected – your body, your choices & as you said, you made every possible protection you could for that. Your actions are certainly no more risky than those of a client who indulges in their own sleeping around. Kudos for your honesty.

Thanks yet again for the glimpse into your intimate moments.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 10:27 pm

Most of us think I’m sure of the whole “spontaneous gangbang” porn-movie scene

Well, actually, there’s a good bit of planning that goes into a porn gang bang as well. :lol:

Thanks yet again for the glimpse into your intimate moments

You’re welcome. ;-)

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Sean November 4, 2009 at 9:36 pm

Most of us think I’m sure of the whole “spontaneous gangbang” porn-movie scene

Well, actually, there’s a good bit of planning that goes into a porn gang bang as well. :lol:

Yes miss, but leave me a FEW masturbation fantasies please ;) At least until the day I can afford my weekend trip out west…

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Pennie November 3, 2009 at 10:16 pm

This is my first time commenting on your blog, and this is actually the first blog of yours I’ve read. I came here through the Project Happily Ever After blog.

I, for one, admire you for this. Not necessarily the activity itself, but just the fact that you’re brave enough to try things that intrigue you. I love the amount of detail that went into planning this. It seems so professional, and like something I would like to try just because of that level alone.

Many people (myself included) don’t understand the mindset behind this profession, and it’s nice being able to get a view of it from someone who works in it. I appreciate being able to get a “front seat” to something I may not otherwise know anything about.

I can’t wait to hear about the rest of that night!

ps~ if you see me around, it’s just me reading blogs/info… I just recently subscribed.

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Alexa November 3, 2009 at 10:40 pm

Hey, there, Pennie. Welcome to my blog. I’m glad you decided to stick around and read a bit. A lot of people who have media-induced ideas about people who do this kind of work would just leave and not bother to try to learn. I appreciate your honesty.

Feel free to poke around and read some of the initial stuff I wrote when I started RPD. It will give you some insight into why I do what I do. ;-)

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Marcus November 3, 2009 at 11:48 pm

Hi this is also my first time commenting, although I have been reading for quite a while and find your writing a great, not only in terms of being a turn on, but also the way you write makes it very easy to visualise what is going on. I have always been a fan of gangbang vids and euro type porn, including watersports, and your willingness to do this, and write about it only makes your site a must read every day for me.

Regarding Mac and his comment about changing his mind about engaging your services after pulling a train of X men, I look at it this way, if all has been done to ensure safety of all concerned via testing etc, what is the difference between 15 men at one time and 15 clients seperately over say a week or two. To my mind there is none. and through your writing you strike me as not being the type of person to take undue risks.

Anyway just my 2c worth. Keep on enjoying yourself and telling us about it.

M

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Mac November 4, 2009 at 3:58 am

I didn’t say I changed my mind about engaging her services, I said she won the argument. I don’t have a rational basis for not seeing her based on her arguments, but I still wouldn’t be the next client. I admit it’s irrational. But since when are humans consistently rational – just look at the election results today.

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Marcus November 6, 2009 at 2:09 am

Mac

If i misunderstood what you were getting at I do apologise.

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dinsdale_piranha November 5, 2009 at 6:43 am

Not quite the typical porn story of woman walking into a biker bar and taking on 20 Hell’s Angels, eh? I guess all this prep is what separates fantasy from reality? Or is this just another type of fantasy? hmmmmm. Seems this involves less “degredation” (for lack of a better work) than the “dirty bikers”.

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EastTNboy November 5, 2009 at 8:54 pm

Alexa, on a somewhat lighter note. Lots of “serious” commenters still noticed or commented on never thinking about a DJ. Well, music sets a lot of my life and i have always had a varied taste. In reading this blog, the comment about the bathrooms with showers conjured up a song from South Pacific. I’ll never think the same way about ” gonna wash that man right outta my hair……” :)

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namelesschaos November 6, 2009 at 5:32 pm

Lots of “serious” commenters still noticed or commented on never thinking about a DJ.

You know I find that kind of interesting in it of itself, we have a 12 man on one women bareback gangbang with loads of semen and multiple penetrations made all the more interesting by the fact that it was done for free by someone who could easily turn it in to a very profitable business venture. Fertile ground for asking questions ranging from the most lascivious of inquiries about the (literal) ins and outs of gangbanging to deep intellectual questions regarding sexuality and what makes us do some of the things we do. With all that to in front of us what do some of us (Including me!) have the urge to ask Alexa…..”So what did the DJ play?” :lol:

Only in my case, its gotten worse, I won a OhMiBod Freestyle (music controlled vibrator) last night so now I find myself hoping Alexa eventually names a few track from the event, so I can fire up “Playlist for a Gangbang” when I get my hands on the thing. :lol:

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Alexa November 7, 2009 at 9:24 am

I won a OhMiBod Freestyle (music controlled vibrator)

Oh, yes, I know what the OhMiBod is. I have one myself. :inlove:

I’ve written in the past how I used to go back to my car between classes in undergrad and masturbate with that thing. :lol:

I use a lot of trance music with mine, and a couple of special tracks that were created by a former friend who also has one. She mixed some music specifically for hers and shared it with me.

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Stephanie November 6, 2009 at 12:36 pm

Bravo on successfully completing another of your desired experiences. Reading about your adventures inspires me to be more open and adventurous in my own sex life – although that generally is much tamer than that you have going on. I can’t wait to read about the actual GB because you do a great job of articulating and making me think outside my comfortable little box.

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Alexa November 7, 2009 at 9:25 am

Reading about your adventures inspires me to be more open and adventurous in my own sex life

I’m glad I have that effect upon you (and others). I think allowing yourself to explore like that is a key to having a more fulfilling sex life, in fact (as I suspect you’ve probably discovered by now). ;-)

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ALAH November 7, 2009 at 1:53 am

I have been a lurker for a while, this is my first time posting a comment thou. I have been following u for quite some time thou. I love reading all ur tweets and ur blogs on here. Checking on what ur doing is the favorite part of my day. I have also been guilty of getting worked up and having to help myself out while reading ur blogs, lol! ;)

I am very envious of all the men u got to have sex with at the GB. I would have given anything, including various bodyparts, to have been one of them that night. Unfortunately I live to far away to have tryed to have been there anyway. But I am very glad u got to finaly live out one of ur sexual fantasys.

I can’t wait to read the blog about the actual GB. I am very exited and feel like I’m starting to get worked up already just thinking about it, lol! :) Keep it up hun and I’ll keep reading. xoxo

PS to Mac: In my opinion, I wouldnt care if I were her next client after her GB. If anything it would make me want to step up my game to try and make her have as good of a time as she did at the GB, LOL!

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Alexa November 7, 2009 at 9:27 am

Mac, thanks for submitting a cleaner version of your comment, and thanks for letting me know you’re enjoying me. ;-)

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ALAH November 8, 2009 at 12:30 am

Ur welcome hun, once I realized what happend I figuerd I better fix it so I dont seem like a dick. FYI my name is ALAH, the “PS to Mac” was a comment aimed at the post by Mac that made the comment about not wanting to have sex with u after the GB. Just to clarify. xoxo hun!

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unknown_soldier November 10, 2009 at 4:07 pm

Amazing.
I found you through your “Alexa Collection”, and this is the first of your blogs I’ve read (though I’ve glanced at, and plan to read, others).
You fly in the face of the core beliefs instilled during my upbringing.
Those beliefs persist in telling me you’ll think me a freak for saying this… please don’t.

Your courage, honesty, and openness are inspiring.
Yesterday I read to the point at which you mentioned gatorade as your preferred drink.
The juxtaposition of the banal terrified me, I had to stop reading, and I wept.
I returned today to finish, ineffably attracted.
“bbw” is right, you are spiritually generous.

Thank you.

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Alexa November 10, 2009 at 7:33 pm

Welcome to my blog. I’m glad you’ve found it inspiring. :kissy:

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unknown_soldier November 11, 2009 at 4:35 am

Thank you for your welcome.
I’d amend my earlier statement, if I could, regarding what provoked my terror.
I experience profound cognitive dissonance facing the reality of:
a) A woman who honestly enjoys sex
b) A woman who enjoys sex so much she’s chosen it as her profession
c) A woman who enjoys sex so much she’d pursue a gangbang for her own pleasure
The dissonance I experience is therapeutic.
I don’t imagine you’d hoped to help people in this way, but I am grateful for it.
I look forward to further reading.

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crazybob November 11, 2009 at 7:12 am

Hard to believe you’d need fluffers. I’m pretty “fluffed” just thinking about it!

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Dominic November 11, 2009 at 1:02 pm

Fascinating post Alexa, and thanks for being so open.

In my dreams, such a service exists for a man to take on 10 women….

Sigh…

Dx

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SexWarrior November 11, 2009 at 2:47 pm

If Alexa and many others can organise to be a woman at the centre of a male gang bang there’s no reason you or any other man couldn’t organise similar – to be the man at the centre of a female gang bang, no?!

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Dominic November 11, 2009 at 2:53 pm

Hmm…

“Wanted…10 gorgeous women to gang bang short, pudgy, balding, middle aged bloke… not a millionaire. No money will change hands.”

Call me a pessimist, but I can’t see it.

Any thoughts Alexa?

Dx :-)

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H November 13, 2009 at 10:15 pm

Seems like a very captivating prelude to a very intense experience. Looking forward to reading it.

And never mind what some grumpy commenters say: as long as you are having fun and are responsible, you should not be ashamed of what you do. And if these possible clients have a problem with that, then I guess they’re not clients you want, as they don’t share your values.

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